Close to Jesus

I have often times thought of what it must of been like for the disciples to talk to Jesus face to face. To see the compassion in His eyes and hear the authority in His voice. How about those kids? They got to sit on His lap while He put His hand on them and blessed them. It had to have been a blast the day he fed 5000. I imagine what it would have been like the day the woman was caught in adultery and was about to be stoned. Wonder what He drew in the sand that day? I would love to have heard Him deliver the sermon on the mount or watch a blind person see for the very first time.
I was talking to Jesus a few years ago about this and how i was really jealous of those who knew Him in this capacity and the Holy Spirit quickly spoke to me and said that those folks would trade all of those days for the opportunity to be alive in your time for just ONE day! I never thought about that until then. They were looking at the fulfillment of the promise and we get to walk in it everyday! My prayer today is that I would live my life in such a way that i would be found worthy of such a great gift.